sunday's story...

 just a few pieces from "how do you think it feels?":
" In my dream, I felt something uncurling inside me, something moving and changing. The cold of stone, a lifetime of darkness. A rending, and a ripping, as if my heart were breaking; a moment of utter pain. Blackness and strangeness and blood. ...the crack in my chest healed, knit and mended, and the cold hand vanished for good. I felt my eyes closing once more. I was tired, and I swam back into the comforting, sake-flavored dark. ...I wonder if I shall ever see her again, and I realize that I scarcely care. I can feel the sheets beneath me, and the cold air on my chest. I feel fine. I feel absolutely fine.
I feel nothing at all."
                    A short story from neil gaiman's, Fragile Things .
inspiration for the story...
"Gargoyles, it occurred to me, were placed upon churches and cathedrals to protect them. I wondered if a gargoyle could be placed on something else to protect it. Such as, for example, a heart..."

i'll have to remember...

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 Sometimes the feeling of loneliness and sadness can become overwhelming when I think of the old life I've so recently left behind. On Friday, I was riding the train back from a fair in Hillsboro, OR when it suddenly hit me. I officially miss going to work and playing with all the crazy, sweet, hilarious kids! At first I was thinking that it would be such a welcome change... not having to go to work and take care of what felt like hundreds of kids when there were really only about 45! I could have more time to work on all of my projects. More time to explore my new life...

On the train, I sat behind a group of three brothers who were also riding home from the fair. They were speaking Spanish and recounting all the cool things they did and saw while eating bags of Takis. They were excited and tired at the same time. Their interaction reminded me so much of all the times I've been on a bus full of kids riding home from a field trip...All tired, excited, telling bad jokes in Spanish because that's the way they learned them (most likely from their parents), eating bags of Takis. 

I'll just have to remember, Bloom Where You Are Planted. I'll have to remember that I will discover new adventures now, find the new places in which I will feel comfortable, create new relationships and memories while always treasuring the old ones.  

saturday's Canterbury Renaissance Faire...

I spy...1. the MOST majestic man Knight valiantly riding his horse (his hair flowing during the joust was too amazing) 2. renaissance women happily trying on handmade hair accessories made of velvet, lace, and feathers. they were beautiful. 3. the queen and her court watching a knight awaiting his joust. 4. shot of the fair grounds with the awe-inspiring  forest as its backdrop. 5. "the Baudy Juggler"=hilarious! 6. the opposing red knight...boooooo! 7. joust in action. 8. took this and thought of KT saying, "oh great a hippy tent" 9. the host of the afternoon joust (his hair also flowed nicely)

sunday's story...

"this is it joel. it's going to be gone soon."

"i know."

"what do we do?"

"enjoy it."

-joel&clementine

Friday's "looking forward to..."

I made it back in time to write about a few of the things I am looking forward to!
1. making our new place feel a little more like home. just sitting on our sofa usually does the trick!

* I will also feel a little better once I've gotten the spare room (mainly my clothes & crafts room) organized and set up!






2. Uploading, editing and blogging the photos of our trip from CA to Vancouver, WA and my photos of the fun things that have kept me from actually uploading, editing and blogging the photos!

 

 3. spending more time in our backyard. The first day we were in WA it rained (big surprise) but this weekend the forecast calls for weather in the high 70s and so, if it's anything like this afternoon was, I can envision sweet afternoons out on our deck. 

 * Just had to add this photo because I am too excited to finally have a full size fridge with freezer! Yup, long gone are the days when we fought over space in the 2 mini fridges with no freezers!

4. my hour road trip to a Renaissance Faire in Oregon tomorrow! I am the most anxious and excited about this one. I can't wait to go!

 

this week I'll take Inspiration from...

Fireworks at Fashion Week in Paris, the Glamourai, the feeling you get after watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, nerdy artwork, dark romance, chandeliers & mirrors, Joseph-Gordon Levitt, Portlandia's 'Put a Bird On It,' walls filled with books & Amy Sedaris' organized clutter.